Christmas and stuff..

What is Christmas? The birth of our savior foremost. Of course we know that it is not the actual day he was born, but its the day we celebrate. I remember many Christmas Eves from childhood. Some good some not so good. It seemed back then it was all about Santa. Little creepy now to think about someone watching you, "he knows when you are sleeping, he knows when you are awake". Today we would get a restraining order for our "stalker". I mean its just not right, right? I prefer to believe in the spirit or idea of Santa. Someone who cares enough to leave you presents for no particular reason, seems like a pretty nice guy to me. I think he and Jesus would get along if he was real. I remember we always got to open one present on Christmas Eve. We always hoped we would not pick the box with clothes in it, LOL! So many times when we were kids, Christmas was a toss up and confusing. Some times it was warm and full of laughter, and some times it was just ok. As I have grown up there is not one particular Christmas that sticks out from childhood but there are plenty that do as an adult. For example, my daughter's first Christmas and all the ones that followed. Since Chad has been sick, I tend to look at things a little differently, and though I have always thought its definitely way cooler to give...instead of receive, it seems to be more important than ever. We can't live in the past, its ok to visit it now and then, but if we carry tragedy with from the past with us, it then has the power to define us. Yes, there were definitely crappy Christmas' from a kids point of view. Times when there were not many presents under the tree. But, we were together.